What Motherhood Cost Me
I'm seven months into motherhood, and it has cost me. My emotional stability has disappeared. I never know when I'm going to "lose it," but it has lost me respect and I regret that. My body is totally different. If ever I wondered if some of my identity came from how I looked, I now have a pretty clear idea- it did. It bothers me that I don't look the same. It's hard to look at pictures of myself, and I've scrolled back to the days when my body fit into those jeans and I looked healthy and young and...in my mind, more attractive. Going to social events is not the same. If you've ever tried to casually nurse, it's not a thing (at least it wasn't for me), and suddenly going places has to factor in a diaper bag, stroller, and car seat- live baby included in the travel package. From experience, the baby may scream all the way to the destination, poop on your jeans [audibly] [during a quieter moment], and forget an extra pair of clothes for thems...